SORRY FOR THE LACK OF UPDATES!!!

But, now i'm baaaaaaack. Haha, dont you miss me? Not quite, whatever. ANYWAY, back to my life - not like i started, but - its been, well boring would be a not so nice way to put it, routined more like it. I've started settling down in CJ, and my life has assumed a more normal pace now, with trying to handle the workload, CCA and church, juggling everything so i still have time for friends. Wow, JC life really is hectic, whats more I'm only J1 and things already are crazy - madness - so i cant imagine life next year.

SO, yesterday i went to watch "As You Like It" by William Shakespear which was put up by the ACJC drama society or something I think, with Kevin. It was not too bad, I mean I guess thats cause I watch too many musicals etc. with my mom by the pros so to me it wasnt really good, but good for a school production I guess? The storyline was boring, but then again, shakespear, Iniki was acting though as an important character in the play, and Nicole was dancing, so that was pretty cool. The cast was trying really hard to have an English accent and most of them werent bad at all, accept this shepherd, oh gosh, he could not sound more chinese than the way he sounded yesterday. It kinda screwed the play up, cause like, his chinese accent was really bad, can you just imagine how he interacted with the other characters!? HAHA, but Kevin & I laughed over it anyway.

AND anyway, I was on the bus with Kevin and telling him that Colin's the only person I know who went to VJ and hasnt changed, the new J1s also havent yet, cause they just went there, but he pointed out that most people change in JC its just that you dont notice it yourself. Thats true, but I do hope I change for the better. I dont know if its me, but I feel like people around me are changing, and I dont know if thats good or bad. To me, you've become really short tempered lately, and less sensitive than you used to be, I dont know if this is just a phase thing or if its gonna last forever. I can never open my mouth to tell you, I just dont have the courage to do it, what if telling the truth means losing you? Then, I'd rather live with it. Sometimes I'd really like to know what you think too, cant you just tell me at that moment or something? I dont like finding out a few hours later, not knowing if the person you're talking about is me or not. I dont like playing games like these, cause honestly I dont have the time to do it anymore. Maybe its just me, but I feel like you're always telling me that I'm selfish and that I think the world revolves around me, but I really dont think the world revolves around me. Plus, no one else has been telling me that, just you, then I guess its good that one thing is a constant.

I dont know what to feel now. Upset? Angry? Or should I just let it go, let it pass. Pretend I dont care and just continue with life? I dont know, really. I'm tiring of guessing. I think you've changed, or maybe I have, so to the changed me you've changed, I dont know. Whatever it is, whichever way this goes, whoever has changed, there is a difference, I can feel it, but I'm not gonna let it defeat me, I just hope that you feel the same way too.