i'm back here again, cause i know i need to solve this. No, i'm not going to write some post, venting out anything. I'm here cause i want this to be over. A few hours ago if you asked me if i wanted to solve this, i'd have said no, yesterday night if you asked me to be the one to start talking first to solve it, i wouldnt have done it without a grudge.

okay, i'm here to say sorry. no, not to you specifically, i mean yes its to you but i'll say sorry again another time. this is like a public apology so that people'll know that things will be settled, i'm sorry if the things that i've said about you werent all true. Like that the BBQs that you've been to werent "not compulsory" well, they werent, but okay i totally neglected the fact that you had a duty/position to uphold and i'm sorry. and i'm sorry it feels like i'm making life difficult for you, i'm really sorry, i'm sorry for overlooking the fact that we all dont have the same passion for CL, and i'm sorry for assuming you did.

and you know what, i dont know why i'm always finding fault with you, i really dont know why. colin pointed out that it might be because i expect alot from people, especially from you. I've always seen you as a really great person, as in like wow, cause you're good at studies, sports, and you've got leadership and fun to be with and all. And so i took that you had the same great passion that you had for CL in the past, but i guess things change especially since you've gone to VJ and all. so i'm sorry for assuming all of that, we all have different things that matter more than others. I think its cause i love CL so much i expect people to be the same, i'm sorry, i know i cant just expect people to have the same passion i do for CL.

and you know, i'm gonna be frank now. i was complaining to colin last night about how i was annoyed cause you didnt book the room and you havent been booking it for the past 6 months or so. but okay, i dont know for sure you didnt book it in the beginning of the year, but the bulk of the time you havent been booking it right? so i was annoyed. I was even more annoyed that you didnt say sorry or sound sorry or if you did say sorry, i'm sorry i must have missed it. but yeah. No, its not your fault, colin's right, we got to take this as a whole exco, and its our duty. So we stand together as one exco :)

i'm sorry for being such a hard to deal with friend. I read your blogpost, and it kinda gave me some wake up call. before that, when colin/rachel asked me if i wanted to lose you as a friend of course i'd tell them no, but deep down i didnt really care. but now, i realise that we shouldnt not be good friends because of this stupid thing. I'm sorry kay? I hope you can not be angry/annoyed with me :)