hey all, i'm feeling in a reflective mood today, so i shall blog about the days events, cause today was rather, eventful.

so i start my day with studying at the AMK library with lizzi and mars, which was pretty fun :D okay, i was productive, but would have been more productive if we had laughed less for all the stupid things we were doing in the library and wasting like, what half an hour doing nonsense. haha, but it was alright i guess, i finished up the chapter on forces and started on work, energy, power which i finished as well. okay, now that sounds pathetic, but i finished the physics workout okay! and it was really quite difficult, cause there are somethings that i didnt understand.

so, after that lunch. AND I ATE FRIED WANTON! and its a friday :( i totally forgot that i couldnt eat meat. oh well. okay, went to popular to get some stationary and then it was back to the library to study again, all the way till 6pm. so we had about an effective 6 hours of studying :) wow, we all better score for physics with all the effort that we've put in. haha, missed mass cause i was wearing shorts anyway. so yeah. went for CL & had rosary so yes. went for dinner at ST and now, i'm here, at home.

i think my reflectiveness is wearing off bit by bit. sigh, it was really an eventful day. Its bugging me you know, at the back of my head, nagging at me to do something, but i dont know what. i mean, i always knew that change was the only constant in life, and that people change with the environment around them to fit in, but i also thought i knew that you'd be stronger than that. A person with a strong character wouldnt change so they could entirely become another person, a person with strong character is someone like calpurnia, who leads a double life because she knows how to act like what so she'll fit in. Now i know what people mean by, you can tell apart an IJ girl, cause i cant identify you anymore.

You know, i've thought about it. About if i was being petty about this whole thing, making it bigger than it should be, blowing it out of proportion. But i dont think i am, i really dont think so. How about this, you be the judge, i'll retell this story now, and you tell me if i'm being petty okay? Cause if i am, i really wanna know, i wouldnt want to wrong people & be all annoying & stuff. Okay, here's the thing:

PersonA is in the committee right, and PersonA comes late for meetings almost all the time because PersonA has CCA/ECA of PersonA's own. Okay, i understand that, what can be done right, school commitments. Then PersonA skips 2 meetings in the beginning of the year because of a school "function" which wasnt compulsory cause it was like, a party. Okay, that pissed me off a little but i just let it be. During a practices for this skit that we put up, PersonA doesnt come for some because PersonA is studying for a test, i'm screaming in my head, you dont even have O's! So i got pissed, but again, just let it be. Whats more, when PersonA meets up with me to plan for camp PersonA complains that its the 2nd public holiday of the year that PersonA couldnt go out. Like, hello! So today, PersonA decides to go for a school concert which PersonB specifically told PersonA not to go for 2 weeks ago, and PersonB told me this afternoon. So i got pissed & annoyed with PersonA. THEN, PersonA shows up at meeting, being very irritable because PersonB told PersonA that i was annoyed/pissed at PersonA and so throughout the whole meeting PersonA doesnt talk to me & says very loudly that PersonA is annoyed.

this is what i say okay, i'm annoyed & irritated by PersonA, i truly am. AND i'm not apologising because i dont see a reason to, i'm not being stubborn but is it my fault? Give me a reason to apologise? For what, expecting PersonA to come ontime, to turn up for meetings & stop complaining that PersonA doesnt have time to study when PersonA has all the time in the world to go out? Is it too much to expect? Really? Everyone says O's are no big deal, but look, IF you had O's it'll be a damn big deal okay, and if people WITH O's this year can make it a point to carry out our duties, for some strange reason, i cannot see why you fail to do so.

Okay, sorry. I should be a good catholic right, and not hold grudges & all. Since, thats what IJ girls are supposed to do, not hold grudges, be nice, because we are set apart from the rest. So yes people, please do give my your opinions on my tagboard, it'd be really appreciated, thanks!