maybe God really gave me the best of both worlds, i guess i should be grateful for it, this year has been one hell of a year. So many ups and downs, and not just for me either, for people around me, i've been depressed, i've been elated and i've loved, i've been hurt. I guess thats all part of life and uh, time to move on people. New year, with new things. I realised that its not good to dwell on things :)

I've finally realised i cant do everything i want, and i cant take up too many responsibilities cause i just cant commit, i have to disappoint some people in order to be able to please the rest, and oh well, things this year have really been, to say the least eye opening and i'm glad. So many things have happened, i never knew i'd end the year on this note, but i did.

as for having the best of both worlds? I have a girl bestfriend, LIZZI THE AWESOME! and a guy bestfriend JOSHUA!! and i guess i get to see/hear a guy's perspective of things alot, it helps you know, it really does. they are 2 very very different people, whom i never ever thought would eventually end up as my bestfriends, lizzi because i used to admire her alot, i practically hero worshipped her (i'm serious!). She was like, the IT girl kinda thing, and i never thought that she would one day end up as my bestfriend :) love that girl, always will! And joshua cause, ACTUALLY, ahem, i thought he looked kinda cute and you know, when he started talking to me on friendster i was like omg right. but then the friendship became something more & wala, bestfriend too :)

well, i'm glad really. then there's colin & jaime! colin's probably the only person i cant get angry at & stay angry at. He's hilarious, and i never seem to be able to get angry at him! He, from a total stranger to me, became one of my closest friends. i used to have a crush on him :/ i know right! and i dont know, guess that we started talking and now look where we are:) jaime on the other hand is like, THE brain. she makes so much sense when i just cant see it, and she's so comforting towards others & nice. she's always been there for me, even though sometimes i'm not there for her :)

and lissa & mars! they are the funniest people on earth! seriously, even though i havent been talking to them much during the hols, and we've been through so much together :) they can turn the weirdest things into jokes, and sometimes you just gotta hand it to them, they make you smile :)

steph! she's probably the only friend that i've never had a quarrel with, which i really think is amazing. i mean, how many times do you make a friend whom you dont ever quarrel with!

okay i gotta go, joshua's chasing me off. BYE!