You know, i've been thinking. I really dont have an option on this, i mean look, you're giving me an either or option. like its either this or this, there isnt like, compromise or anything, you're asking me to choosing, to make a desicion on this, which i just cant, i mean look, you're asking me to choose between 2 things that are important to me, just like asking me to choose between seeing and hearing, i cant. I need both of them to enjoy life, dont you think?

And we've been talking about this, i can wait, if that means having to both see and hear, sure why not? But if waiting is going to make it more difficult to choose, why do i even bother, you want me to choose, and i just cant, i cant choose, i just cant. And maybe life was just made to be this way to see how long you're gonna make me choose till you finally decide that maybe i cant choose, there is no choosing between 2 goods, right? Ah well.

Dear God,
I dont know what to do with this situation at hand now, i cant please anyone without hurting another, and i'm really stuck now. Please help us overcome this soon, because if it drags on any longer, i really think i'll lose both my sight and my hearing, i think having one is better than not having any at all, but this decision is hard, please help me.