wassup yawl :D
okay, i've officially decided today that i'm gonna be nice to everyone around me, yes everyone, i'll try to stand those annoying ones and try to see them in a different way, cause while i was having dinner, i was thinking about the chinese story about the girl who was checking for the bad cockles cause apparently you can check by hitting 2 on each other to see if they make a clear sound. clear sound=good, unclear=bad. then once, when she was checking the cockles, she realised that all the cockles made the unclear sound thing so she told her mom and then they both realised that the first cockle she picked up to hit the rest were bad, so obviously all the cockles sounded bad.

THEN, she was relating that to her own life, like how she reasoned, that she cant have only met annoying/bad people (cause she thinks everyone's annoying) and that maybe she's the bad cockle, thats why everyone seems bad/annoying to her. so she realised that she shouldnt like, compare others to herself, or expect others to act the way she wants them to act, and she decided to change herself first then change others, be more accomodating of other's faults and learn to appreciate them more often, because no one is perfect and neither is she. I learnt something from the chinese lesson, apart from chinese that is, i mean, i've always known that we should be nice to people, i just never really got around to doing it. But now i've decided. I am gonna be nice okay!

i think i should stop gossiping/talking behind their backs/bitching about people. (oh man, this is really gonna be difficult but i'm gonna try, God please help me) okay, i have no grudges against anyone now, and i'm gonna start afresh with everyone. I dont hate anyone or dislike, as of yet since i just put away all my grudges. I've had this sudden change of mindset cause i was studying with lizzi and mars at starbucks today, and on the way back we were like, talking about people and lizzi was saying how she always thought i was really nice, the kind that doesnt bitch or anything, i dont want to prove to her that I really am that kind of person, i should be nice, yes i should, starting from now!