sometimes things happen for reasons unknown, sometimes i feel like running and hiding, like dying, like getting a new life, why does something that i've asked for before seem so wrong now. I know now, why God doesnt give me everything i ask for.

I'm sorry if i've ever said anything that has hurt you, and i want to tell you that you mean more to mean than he can ever be okay, and that no matter what happens, i'll always stand at your end, i promise. I know that you're hurt, and i know that i cant do anything about it, I know that i probably should stay away from you to give you some air, i'll do anything to get you back to where we first started, when we were so comfortable with each other.

somethings i cant control, somethings i can.
And for those that i cant, i'm sorry.
I really love you, trust me.