(sound of people chattering loudly to each other)

scene starts with two people sitting opposite each other, talking. Someone enters from stage left, sits next one of the two, three of them talk and one shifts to sit on the opposite side. Another person enters, apparently who told the girl to shift so she didnt need to sit with her. Three of the girls talk and laugh as if nothing's wrong, but she sits there, eating, not saying much preoccupied with her food. She's thinking of exactly why things have become like this, why their friendship is gone with the wind, why God's doing this to her. She tries her very best to think God makes things happen for a reason, and that this will pass soon enough, its just another part of life. She finishes her food, walks to somewhere quieter, surely there will be peace in there, surely i can just think alone. Or at least, avoid seeing how everyone can do as well with or without her, she's walking around the quiet room she entered, thinking about everything that has happened, thinking, wondering. Time passes excruciatingly slow while she is in that room, God's making fun of her, maybe God wants her to be able to accept change, because life is like that. Finally she walks out of the room, takes her things from the table they were sitting at and walks up, someone calls for her to wait, but she doesnt, she doesnt want anyone to talk to her, she doesnt want anyone to see how hurt she is, she doesnt want anyone to see the tears rolling down her face, she knows none of them will understand, even though some have been through it before. She knows that all she wants to do now is run, as far away from reality as she can be, she wants to be alone, she doesnt want to be in school. The tears are filled with hurt, hurt that they can sit at the same table and not talk to each other, hurt that this is what has become of their friendship, hurt that no one seems to care enough to know that she's hurt, hurt that she can lie saying everything was alright, until she goes to school to find out that nothing is alright. She wants to tell someone, someone who will understand, but she knows if she tells anyone else, the situation will get even worst when she finds out more people know about it.

She puts up a front, she's fine, she's happy. Because that is exactly what everyone wants to see. She's the villan, its all her fault, she's gonna accept it. Now i know how it feels like, when you told me you felt like you were always standing outside, looking through a window.

HEYALL. just back from choir, supremely tired from the day, there's another rehearsal tomorrow for mass and stuff, woah. I didnt bring anything back to study/revise even though exams are like, 4weeks away. Awesome :D I really have to start studying soon, yeah. OMGIMSTARVING! i'm gonna eat now, goodbye people.