i dont know whats wrong with me these days, i get annoyed really easily. like super fast. over the smallest most stupid things. i'm annoyed at people. i'm annoyed at myself, i dont know whats happening to me now. i dont know what it is that i'm feeling. i dont know if its stress, i dont know if i'm feeling trapped. i dont know.i feel like i'm in some fog, its so misty and i cant find my way out. all i see is white. am i in heaven? no, i dont think so, if i am in heaven, why do i still feel the pain. the aching thats making me feel like i'm in hell?

i see colours. so many of them, flying across my face. she's colouring. but she cant find the right colour that she wants.
red. nope, throw.
blue. nope, throw.
pink. nope, throw.
yellow. yes, she continues to colour. when she'd done, she realises the floor's littered with crayons. the white walls are colourful. she looks at me and smiles.

i dont want to stop here and now. lately i've been feelig rather, crappy. but i realised that i can study better with this mood. no idea why. maybe cause i tend to pay more attention. and i realised, the way i numb myself is by studying. and by some other way, but yeah. you dont need to know that. maybe i should go study physics. got math in it too. need more concentration, yeap thats it. now i know why i keep failing math.