OH NO. you know, i should SO be mugging and all, cause exams are SO close. but i only managed to study physics today. i dont really enjoy studying history and ss as much as sciences. actually, i dont like studying anything else other than sciences. like, i dont really like math much, seeing as i keep failing. it sucks you know. to just keep failing. time after time.

fall, get up, heal.
fall, get up, healing, fall.
fall, get up, fall.
fall, getting up, fall.
fall, dont get up.

oh yes. i bought the physics 1o year series today. and dont you find it odd? like, it says series, but its not really like, a series. i mean, whenever i think of series, i think of sequel? i think of continuation? but oh heck, it doesnt really matter does it? no matter. its physics. speaking of physics. i need help, yeah, maybe, BUT, lissa, i want to go for tuition for the RIGHT REASONS. and i mean, like, NOT to have an ulterior motive.

yes, lissa. I unlike you, do things for the right reason. (or do i?) i'm confused. utterly confused and muddled. so that means, i'm confuddled. and please dont quote my blog (yes, that means you colin) and read it out to me to ask me what i mean. get it? good for you. dont get it? too bad. its for you to go figure. not for me to explain what it means to you.

i liked today's homily from father mike. the poem was great. and it was inspiring, i guess, in a way.(its written in lizzi's blog too)

For every pain we must bear,
for every burden, for every care,
there’s a reason.

for every grief that bows the head
for every teardrop that is shed,
there’s a reason.

For every hurt, for every plight,
for every lonely, pain-racked night,
there’s a reason.

But if we trust God, as we should,
it will turn out for our good.
Because He knows the reason.

So, there's a reason for everything now. therefore, i shouldnt blame God for anything that happens to me, because there IS a reason.

start.
stage lights are on, on stage left, a girl emerges.
she is alone on stage.
curtain closes.
silence. there's no audience.
end.

jaime told me that in my life i dont have problems, only challenges. cool huh. makes a whole lot of sense. GOSH. i dont know WHAT i'll do without her.