was reading the new book steph bought me for my birthday, twilight. so far, its been a pretty interesting read, partly cause i love romance novels even though in actual fact things like that never happens in reality. its really interesting, and i love it! thanks steph!

oh, ever wondered why i read so much? heres the thing, whenever i read, i'll immerse myself in a completely new/different world. its sort of my escape from this world. the escape that i'll make alone. yes, i like reading alone, so, if i'm reading, take the hint and dont disturb me, i get really annoyed and pissed off. so if i'm quiet, i'm trying to control my temper ya? just, leave me alone. and, i'm NOT emo-ing. cant i just have some quiet time to myself?

i so dont do emo at all. haha. so, yes lately i've not been feeling myself, maybe quieter and more anti-social. but sometimes i'm tired of being so outgoing. i just wanna sit alone and read a book. is that wrong? its just really tiring sometimes, to be the person that i've always been. maybe i need to study harder? work harder for italy? yeah, i guess thats it. need to put more heart into what i do, except for being outgoing.

its like the ocean has storms and waves, currents that destroy boats and all. yes, exciting as all these may be, destroying, claiming all those boats/ships for your own, it was your work after all. but sometimes the ocean's calm and just as long as a light wind blows across the water, it'd send ripples through the water. storms are interesting, devastating even, but dont you just prefer the calm? the quiet? just take the hint already.

and hey, i'm fine now okay? really. if you dont think i'm fine, that something's bugging me, then, once you figure, tell me. i'll admit it already, there is something up, but i'm not gonna tell anyone unless you can tell me exactly what it is, only then would you get anything about it out of me. happy guessing yo!