hey people, its been raining/drizzling all morning. and till now, its STILL drizzling. and singapore still complains the shortage of water. okay, so its not fresh, but you can do the new water thingo and make the water clean. okay yeah. yesterday was the 29th feb and i wanted to blog, cause it comes only once every 4 years man. but i was too tired and so, obviously, didnt blog lah. i so should have blogged. missed my chance. its gonna only come, in another 4 years. sigh. whats in the past should be left there then, no point thinking about it.

oh yes, i did physics today. kay, well, it wasnt much. i mean, i didnt do much, but i still have alot of physics to do. 4 freaking physics assignments. what a way to spend the weekend. oh great. and 22 math questions. which is really quite alot. but, as i said, i really need to pull up my socks (not literally, cause it cant/wont go any higher) and study harder. i'm not off to a good start to the year, and i really need to change that.

oh yeah, and friends, dont be so sad okay? things are bad, yeah, but you can have a positive attitude towards it right? okay, maybe i dont know how bad it is exactly, but it cant remain there forever. do something about it. thrash it out, make it clear, you'd feel better, rather that just let it evaporate by itself ya?

sometimes i sit there and wonder, what happen to you?
what happened to the person i once knew?
i know people change, yeah. but this change is so great.
i dont wanna lose you as a friend, really.
many things have been happening, and all i see is the "heck it" attitude.
i'm not siding anyone. but just look at how much effort you're putting in.
and then tell me, if i'm wrong.
if you think i'm wrong, and that you've really been trying,
okay, whatever you wanna think, i'm not gonna correct you.

and then there's this problem of school, for me that is.
i shouldnt be a councillor. i really shouldnt. i'm not putting in enough,
looking at everyone else who's doing so much more, i shouldnt be there.
i'm too preoccupied with other things that i forget the importance of this.
i'm sorry, for not committing, i'll do my best now.
put in as much effort as i can afford to.
cause council means alot to me, yes it does.
and i'm really sorry for not being of much help.
i hope now its not too late to start.

speaking of school, i'm not doing well in my studies,
not well at all, i failed my Emath test, AGAIN, mind you.
by 3 marks. i dont know why. i understand all the concepts,
but somehow or other, i just forget everything that i've learnt.
and its not that difficult if i look at it. it really isnt.
this isnt just math, chinese, i failed. yes, failed.
i have never failed chinese overall till this year. never.
and chem, i dont understand a single thing mrs selvum says.
to me, i'm sorry, she doesnt teach, she speaks in martian or something.
and we're gonna have a chem test, this thursday. brilliant.
on the topic metals. and i completely do not understand a single thing.
on the other topics i can understand, cause its rather easy.
but metals just left me clueless. and all she does is ask us to read.
if being a teacher was that easy, just sit in class and ask students to read,
i'd be a teacher. for asking them to read the textbook, i get paid, why not?

and those, were just on the surface, whats happened that everyone knows about.
there are other things, deeper inside,
that no one knows, or well, that i havent told anyone about,
but if you were smart enough, you'd have figured,
its not that difficult really. just think.

When you ask God for patience, do you think God gives you patience? Or the chance to be patient. when you ask God for courage, do you think God gives you courage? Or the chance to be courageous? When you ask God for happiness, do you think God would give you happiness? Or the chance to be happy?
-evans almighty

life is full of chances, grab them and make use of them. since opportunity rarely comes knocking on your door, why not, you go knock on opportunities door?