do you sometimes feel like, you're just not good enough,
that people expect so much of you, but you just cant live up to it?
like, you're disspointing everyone who pins their hope on you?
people expect alot from me, and sometimes i just feel i'm not good enough.
like i'm inadequet.

especially since i'm a councillor. people expect so much from me.
"its just a leadership position, big deal" you may say. but thats not all.
people look at you differently, they expect so much of you,
i just dont know if i can cope. i mean yes, being a councillor is an honour.
but sometimes i dont know if i made the right choice in being a councillor.

ever felt like you cant cope, like someone is suffocating you?
sometimes i feel so tired, teachers, parents and sometimes even friends.
giving you constant pressure and having so much expectations of you.
and when everything is back to back against one another,
and you're being cornered, and you've got nowhere to go.

this is just how i feel. trapped. like expectations are just coming at me,
and i dont know where to go. i wanna dig a hole.
maybe i just wanna be the next sleeping beauty.
get into some deep sleep and never wake up. just sleep.
and wait for my knight in shining armour to come save me.

i feel really tired. really really tired.
tired of my duties, tired of trying to achieve.
tired of being awake, that i just wanna sleep.

and annoyance builds. teachers, friends. they keep wanting you to achieve.
telling you to never give up. everyone thinks they lead the worst lives,
yes. but i dont think so, i'm just giving up, cause it is really a waste of my time.
i dont see the product of this. dont see any point in doing it.

i'm wasting my life away, if not for distractions, i'd do better.
but without the distractions, my life would be like still water.
i cant decided which way is better, distractions or not.
but i love peace, so maybe i should just, do what i need to.
friends used to be top priority, really, but, somehow, i dont think so now.
i think i need to be more focused to get the results i want.

i'm sorry friends, i dont want to be a dissapointment, towards teachers,
towards my parents and especially myself. i think friends are important, yes.
but i've come to realise, its tiring too. sleep?
yeah, its important. thats why i dont wanna wake up.
waking up? getting tired all over again? pressure? expectations?
forget it, i just want a break. i just want to do well, be happy.

p.s i'm really not going to guess. its tiring, alright? and its really annoying too. so just forget it, if i was meant to know, i'd know. its a small thing to you, but you're not me, with everything i'm going through now, you're not helping. sorry, i'm giving up.