hey people, its chinese new year we all ought to be happy. i'm happy. i've reached my goal, and over achieved it too. i'm happy even before 14 feb. cool huh. wish i could do this well in my exams and stuff. but oh well. AND, the council has this cool idea. i mean, yeah i think its the exco/sec4s. they're doing this to raise funds i think, yeah. for our indoor sports hall.

okay, so valentines is coming up right? so they decided, they could sell flowers (roses i think) and instead of just selling them, you get to choose who you want to give it to so that on valentines day, the council will go round school giving flowers. COOL HUH. yeah, the only thing thats weird is, that we're in an all girls school, and yeah, so its a sign of friendship, but dont you think its a tad bit weird?

ok, anyway. i have this problem, or rather, ok. i'll just tell you this story, if lets say, this girl, X has a boyfriend and well, obviously, she's in love with him,la la la. so on..but her friends dont think that her boyfriend is true to her. like as in, her friends think that the only reason her boyfriend is with her is for the sake of being together, not cause he loves her or anything. But her friends dont wanna tell her cause she wont believe it either. and her friends have proof that she should leave her boyfriend. firstly, when X went out with her boyfriend, and he met a group of his friends, he did want to tell them that X was his girlfriend, he said that X was his friend. jerk much. secondly, what GUY makes a GIRL wait for like, 1hr for him, for no rhyme or reason. some gentleman.

but whatever. this just proves that guys shouldnt rule your lives. if you wanna get a boyfriend, dont be in self denial, if he does any of the above, obviously, something's up and you should do something about it. dont have this mindset that he loves you so you forgive him for everything he does. please, get a life and realise this ISNT love.

maybe you think i dont know what it feels like, maybe i dont. but at least i know better than to fall in love with someone who doesnt give a shit about you. at least i know that i'd be better off than being together with someone who doesnt love me and just wants to be together for the sake of status, and more. the things he does to you. if he really loved you, he'd wait. i thought you were smart. i really thought you had some brains. but obviously i'm wrong.

i'm sorry about that, i just really felt that i needed to say it out. somethings up, just face it alright. no matter how hard it is, its the truth. just freaking MOVE ON.

anyway, i'm feeling much better today compared to yesterday. my flu's still here but it's better than yesterday. and yeah, went visiting and all, collected ang baos. my relatives came over for lunch and we watched some movie called lust caution. which is R21 btw. my mom told me to watch it cause its a good movie. i fell asleep halfway, partly cause its all in chinese/dilect and the subtitles are in chinese as well, so i didnt understand it.

okay, i think i need to go bathe like, now, cause its almost dinner time and i do need to shower since yeah, i feel sticky and disgusting and all. haha.
so, ciao for now people.

-keep smiling, what do you have to lose?