wow, talk about fast. this year's already ending and a new one's gonna start. all so soon. i dont know why, but i just dont want the new year to start. i mean, sure i want to, you know, move on and whatever, but then again i dont want it to start cause new year brings new problems, and even though its a challenge, whatever. i quite sick of them.

new year, new subjects, everything. i mean, i feel so weird looking at my timetable now, instead of "science" it says 'chem' or 'physics' which is weird for me. but what the heck i'll have to live with it, get used to it and then, learn to love it. no matter how hard is may be for me to do. okay, I LOVE NEXT YEAR. (i hope)

oh besides that, i wonder why cancer is so, common. i dont know. why does it have to happen. people suffer. and i dont think they deserve it. why should they. no one deserves it. the therapy? no, thats just inhumane. and think about it, even after the therapy, you dont live long. just prolongs your life, before you die. yeah. quite stupid actually. if i ever get cancer. i'll just kill myself, less pain.

on a lighter note, everything now's going fine and i'm not complaining about my life now, no way. its great. i cantered today, thanks god i didnt screw up, but it wasnt that great either, my voice, no way can i make it anywhere. i'm really thankful for everything. my friends, my voice, my family, my life. im thankful for god, for everything and anything. wonder how next year's gonna be like.

i dont wanna drift from my friends, i want everything to be like this year. i just want the normal-ness of this year. i dont exactly like change. but i guess if its for the better, why not. okay shit, i'm just talking rubbish. so just ignore me. i;m in a thinking mood now. thinking about everything that might happen next year. but thinking time's over. i need to get out of my thinking chair. haha.

CIAO.