okay. i'm confused. again. jaime's policy of isolation doesnt work. and its not helping that i'm stuck at home with nothing to keep my mind off things. i need to start over a new life. cause this one is driving me crazy. and besides, my brother's friends are here. the whole bunch of them. like what, 7 of them.

gee, thanks. ruin my holidays. i can only use my dad's laptop which doesnt have maple in it. yes, i'm actually back to playing maple cause i think that maple lets me get my mind off things. cause in maple its like a whole new world and i literally have a "whole new life" in there. it works. while i'm playing maple, i'm actually having fun.

i know, i went for charismatic and all, and its bad to run away from things. but i'm not ready to accept them either. at least in maple i'm happy. and i'm not addicted to maple cause i dont go crazy over not getting to play it. so there. i just like maple cause its fun, and i have a 'goal in life' there. unlike the real world, its more forgiving.