ok i'm lying, i'm missing you. i missed all my friends when i was overseas. i really did. i missed you all. like jaime, tessa, lizzi,steph & joshua. gosh. its good to be back, but then again. lizzi and joshua aint in singapore! man. at least i have steph,tessa & jaime. save me. whoo. new zealand's weather is so nice lah. the minute i stepped out of the airport, whoa,the heat was killing me. freaking hot here in singapore la. but even though new zealand is so nice and i would like to live there, i'd rather be home in singapore with my friends. they make my hell-ish life so much more bearable. thanks! i love all of you. you've walked into my life and made it so much better than it was before.

camp tomorrow and i havent packed yet. aw man, i think i should start, there are quite alot of things that i need to pack for camp. but i feel so lazy. ok. maybe i should start packing slowly so i wont be in such a rush at night. okay. i think i'll do that. soon. not now, soon. hah. i feel so slack-ish today.

hey you, i told you i liked you. but i dont want to. i hate myself so much for liking you. i really hate myself. cause i know it wont work. i just know it. and i dont need anyone to tell me anything that's going on, cause i know. i just. ok, i've decided, that even if i need to force myself to like someone else, i would, cause it just cant be you. it can be anyone else but you. cause i cant risk losing you. but i'm not sure how long its gonna take. if you're reading this, and you know who you are, sorry. i really like you, but, if its going to ruin what we already have, i'm gonna give it up. maybe i need time. just give me some time.